Chapter 6 (1/2)

~Time skip- 3 months~~JONGHYUN POV~So it's been 6 years since I debuted in SHINee with my current best friend and lover Kibum. It's been 5 years since I fell in love with him, although I didn't fully make sense of it until a few months ago. It's been 3 months since I first made love to him. And it's 2 hours away from my planned onstage proposal to him, to which I hope he says yes.

I know, I know that's pretty soon to be jumping to marriage, only 3 months, but Kibum and I have been through a lot together, especially over the last year.

We only started dating recently but we've known each other and been friends for a lot longer, and I know that during those years as best friends I've always wanted more than that and I know Kibum feels the same.

So because of all that I informed our Manager and SM that I was planning this and that regardless of what they say I'm going to go through with it, whether they like it or not.

I told them everything that I realized about myself and my feelings for Kibum and what had happened recently, excluding certain sexual details of course. I told them how much I loved him and how I wanted to officially make Kibum mine.

Originally I thought I'd have to beg for a long time or that they'd say no right away because of us being the same gender, but surprisingly, after hearing me out, they agreed. They said that they always knew that something was there between us and that they were proud that we came to realize it ourselves and made something out of it. They said they were proud that an idol was finally going to come out publicly, despite what media and society might say. They said "it's about time someone in the industry brings attention to the fact that even idols can fall in love with another of their gender".

So they agreed to my plan, as long as Kibum and I were prepared to deal with possible hate towards us as not everyone will be open to the idea of idols in a same sex relationship right away, if at all.

They told me that I would have to take full responsibility for anything that happens and handle things in a way that it won't affect SHINee or SM Entertainment.

I told them I was fully prepared to take on that responsibility, that I had thought long and hard about this before I made my desicion.

I thanked them and told them I respected them even more now that I knew they were supporting Kibum and I. They just smiled and nodded as I bowed and made my way out of the building.

So that's why I'm here 2 hours before the concert starts to make sure everyone knows what they havw to do in regards to my plan.

You see I had gotten Onew hyung, Taemin and Minho in on it, because as my group members this was going to affect them, if only slightly. Also because they were my closest friends, they were practically my family and they all knew and were happy for Kibum and I so I needed their help and moral support. That and I didn't want four shocked and cluessless members to deal with when I only factored in one.

Onew hyung is gonna be my distraction and the one to keep Key's eyes covered until I was ready and 2Min were gonna take care of the set up. Originally I had planned it for 2Min as distractions and Onew hyung as set up but everyone, including Onew hyung himself, said with the kind of set up I had planned trusting Onew hyung and his condition was not a very good idea. So I switched the roles.

It was now 6 minutes until show time, we all huddled up as usual, and hyung did his pre concert power speech. The whole time I was looking at Key, and when our eyes connected, we smiled at each other. God I loved his smile. I really hope he says yes and I can continue waking up to it every morning.

We did our final cheer of "SHINee FIGHTING!", than got into our positions before we were raised up onto the stage.

I was raised first, followed by Taemin and Key on either side of me and than Onew and Minho beside them.~ONEW POV~Our first few songs went really well. I was so proud of the members, they've been working so hard lately and it's definitely paid off. I'm definitely most proud of Key and Jonghyun, they had some really tough times a few months ago, between the tension in their relationship to the anti fans comments about Key and his relationship with Jonghyun. But despite all that they managed to pull through and become stronger because they have each other now more than ever. Their hard work and strength is definitely showing in their performance too. Because of all of our excitement and anticipation for Jonghyun's proposal tonight, the energy in our songs and dances is at its max. The fans are absolutely wonderful too, it's giving us so much power. Even Key seems to be having fun tonight. I really hope he says yes to Jonghyun for both of their sakes. As leader I easily noticed how much they need each other and how much better and happier they are when they're around each other. I know if Key says yes, which I have a pretty good feeling he will, nothing will be able to bring those two down.~JONGHYUN POV~We're half way through "Stand by Me", our final song. It's an oldie but a goodie, and it always makes me think of Key.