How To Save A Life (1/1)

It was never pleasant living in the Choi household. The past alpha was strict but especially with me. You could even say that I was molded into the perfect manservant for Tao and Min Gi. I still remember the day mother gave us away, it was a sunny day but inside my heart I felt cold. Seungyeon consoled me on our way to the Choi's and I cried until I no longer could. It was so long ago though, I had grown and even despite all the torment I faced I still felt no over wheming hate for my mother. No I could never forgive her but the resentment I had for her when I was smaller. The hate I felt towards her when Seungyeon died- It had all gone.I lay in my bed, wondering where my mother was now. With no one to take care of her nor to bully she was alone. Not that it mattered much since memories with her were also unpleasant..."N?" The maid called me down for breakfast but again I asked to to bring it up to me. I was not a breakfast person, I had never been invited to eat with the Choi family and going down to eat with Leo's felt weird and misplaced to me."...Okay..." The maid left, looking worried. To me I was fine, no bad dreams had woken me up last night and I was not having a panic attack. But I guess the maid was worrying over me none the less. That was another big difference. In the Choi household no one ever helped me or cared too much over me. I was forbidden to talk to to other maids and man servants anyway and they saw me as a threat. A permanent person to aid the Choi Household. However if they knew what happened to get me there, I'm sure they wouldn't be so jealous.One of Leo's maids brought up the food for me- A small fruit bowl a piece of French Toast and scrambled eggs. It was still so strange to me I guess. I had been living in this room for over four months yet this was the best I had been treated in my life. It was strange.When I finished most of the food I went down to bring it to the kitchen. It was the first time that I was venturing outside the room since I had came here so when the maids saw me they were shocked."Here..." I handed the man who was washing dishes my plate and as I was about to walk away I bumped into the person I wanted to see the very least right now. Leo."Your supposed to say thank you." he stood a few inches above me."..." He reached out to help me off the floor but I flinched back and got up on my own. Practically speed walking back to the safety of my room. When I finally went inside and closed the door I held the breath I had been holding."He wouldn't hurt us..." My wolf kept on telling me but I really did not believe her. Usually we would have the same beliefs and agendas but she didn't see eye-to-eye with me. Jonghyun would tell me that Leo was a good guy as well but he was a beta. Of course Leo was a good guy to him. Everyone thought their Alpha was the very best."He would. They all do." I told her, warning her to be careful and stop trying to make Leo the good guy.He was being nice now but when he found a way to break me he would- N had no doubt in his mind he would. No man in this world was trustworthy.Leo POVI woke up today with nothing really to do. I had a meeting in another county this afternoon but this morning I was free to spend some time with me daughter. As I was getting dressed to go downstairs for breakfast my wolf suggested we invite N to come and eat with us."He hasn't really left his room for anything. I'm getting worried he might have grown into the walls." My wolf chuckled. The image came to my mind and I laughed with him."Well sure I mean it won't hurt." I told him. It wasn't like I was not inviting N on purpose it was just that I respected N's decision to eat alone. He had not met Ye Bin yet and because of his lonesome demeanor he didn't seem like much of a children person to me anyway."Will you ask N if he would like to join us for breakfast?""N! Is he coming to eat with us daddy?" Ye Bin was excited to meet N which would be great if I didn't know that she'd be disappointed. Ye Bin was sometimes too young and energetic, but N definitely lacked feeling."I don't know love. Well see." I told her honestly. Of course the maid came down to tell us that N wanted to eat in his room again. I sighed expecting as much and just ate with my daughter."Sweeties, N won't be joining us today." Ye Bin got all sulky so I tickled her to make her happy again."Daddy! Daddy stop! I'm gonna throw up on you if you don't stop it." I stopped at once laughing at Ye Bin's cute frown"Daddy~" Ye Bin whined. I stuck a piece of French Toast in her mouth and smiled at her, pinching her nose. We had an enjoyable breakfast despite N's absence.After breakfast, Ye Bin's tutor came and I went to go let him in. When I came back to the kitchen I bumped into N. It was obvious that he felt unsure around me, that or embarrassed."Your supposed to say thank you." I tried to tease him but he flinched when I tried to help him up. Leaving before he could say anything, even to mock me. He was much more mouthy when he first came. It was kind of annoying to know that N felt unsafe around me when I had done nothing to create such a reason.I went upstairs and got ready to leave. I took Jonghyun and my other beta with me. Jonghyun spent time with N during his monthly heat, so maybe he knew why N felt so unsafe around me. I would have to ask him on the way out.N POVI guess I spent a lot of days looking out my window because It seemed like I always knew when Leo left. I saw him leaving with Jonghyun and another person, seemingly his other beta. Somehow Jonghyun noticed me from below and sent me a thumbs up. I blushed, embarrassed that he had even seen me an retreated to my bed- away from the window.Since Jonghyun helped me with my heat when I got too bad (Only one or twice during my heat we would actually have sex anyway) we had a relationship or sorts. I mean even though I kept the room dark whenever we did mess around, to hide my scars, he obviously felt my most prominent scars and had asked me on multiple occasions why I had them. Of course I refused to tell him, fearing that once he did know he would not only avoid me but he would tell Leo. And the last thing I wanted was everyone knowing about my scars.N POVA few hours after Leo left there was knock on my door and when I opened it a little girl stood in front of me."Hi, I'm Ye Bin!" She smiled at me brightly and I found her to be cute but weird. I had hear that the Jung Household had no future leader yet this little girl looked just like Leo. Except like a girl version of Leo. And she was way cuter.She reminded me of the kids that Min Gi had, the oldest was a smart-mouth sometimes but I adored those brats. Now they were stuck with their grandfather because their mother was killed by their father. But just as I was about to smile and ask who she was approached me and I ended up flinching."I won't hurt you." she promised but it wasn't really her I was too concerned about... I was more concerned about the large man version of Leo who would no doubt have my head if I did anything to his daughter. Actually I'm sure Leo AND his mystery wife would take turns stabbing me until I died."My name is Ye Bin, but I know yours *heehee* It's N!" She pointed gleefully at me and I couldn't help feeling a small snug at my heart."Yes, my name is N princess." I bowed to her. Actually now that I think it about it. Where did princess come from exactly?"But it suits her~" My wolf sung to me and I had to agree- it was a befitting name,"I like you. So- what cha doing~.""I was hiding out in my room.""You didn't come to breakfast today either...""Huh?""Breakfast. Everyone was there but you. Why?" I sat besides her on the bed, tempted to wrap my arms around her."Well, I'm very sick right now and I didn't want to disturb you and your family." I lied, even couching a little at the end."Daddy wouldn't have minded!""What about mommy?" she got silent and looked down. Damn, was her mother dead or something?"Daddy told me that mommy is living in another country and that she's really happy so I should be happy too." she started to cry, latching on to me. It was really sudden, scaring me a little."I don't want to be happy!" My forehead was creasing and I my mind went a little haywire. I picked her up on to my lap and just held her for a while. Nothing was said, until she stopped crying so much."Better?" She sniffed, tilting he head back cutely."Better.""I'm sorry I  told you all of this." You know for a seven year old, Ye Bin was incredibly smart.  Although I'd expect nothing less from a child of the Jung household- especially and Alpha. If I could have children I'd want them to learn whatever Leo had taught her too damn well."Princess- It's fine.I know you snuck in here without your dad so before a maid comes and blows your cover you have to go back to your room.""Really?" She pouted but her cuteness was not over powering my will at any time."Really. But tell you what. You can come and visit me whenever you want to and we'll hang out. I promise." We hugged and she carefully left after giving me a kiss on my cheek. A little while after she left I remembered that I was terrible at lying and that If Leo asked me I would undoubtedly tell him. And if I told him we'd  both get into trouble. Okay, not telling Leo. That's my survival tactic this week, not telling Leo.Ye Bin visited me almost everyday, sometimes she'd bring up snack so we could have tea parties and mini slumber parties together. She tried falling asleep on me me once so she could stay in the room for the night but then Leo would freak out, so I got a maid to carry her to her room in secret.It was honestly the best thing- to be around kids I mean. The fact that I could never have my own saddens me but seeing a kid smile, even if its not mine. Ye Bin visited me every second she could and thankfully before Leo could confront me Ye Bin had told him (which he then told me) how much she liked me.Leo POVI was always busy and I guess since Ravi, Jaewhan and the boys were so far away Ye Bin was always with people significantly older than her. At least when I was little I had Jaewhan to pacify me but Ye Bin was the sole child of this household and I wasn't planning on having anymore that's for certain. Being with older people did make Ye Bin a very smart and well-spoken individual though. So I guess it was more of a plus, education is #1 in this household. "Daddy I've been playing with N for a while now." Ye Bin casually told me while we were on a drive. I almost pulled over. I mean N wasn't really a threat but still when did Ye Bin start playing with N? Why hadn't she told me?"And I've decided to marry him when I grow up." I pulled the car to the side of the road Immediately making her scream in shock."Daddy!""M-marry him?""No. Not really. I just said that to freak you out a little." She giggled and I attacked her with tickles before continuing driving. When we got home I was gonna talk to N. Actually I had been planning, after evaluating him, on making him Yebin's body guard.N POVAfter a little debate between Leo and I he agreed to let me play with Ye Bin. I could even visit her in her room now. Hmmm. Maybe she was right and Leo was not one of the worst alpha's...It was like three months into playing with Ye Bin that we were having our first sleep over. Today was all planned out- I was gonna take Ye Bin to my favorite place (I had gotten permission to take her out from Leo beforehand). Then were were gonna go home have lots of sweets and go to bed before Leo got home. I was just as excited as Ye Bin. It was the very first time I was having a sleep over after all..."Are you going out on a play date or getting married OR and don't tell me... your totally going to bury someone!" My wolf snickered."Too much?" I looked in the mirror. I was putting on this tie Ye Bin had bought me recently."It's not too much, you know for a blind date or a funeral home." Ha. My wolf honestly thought she was hilarious. I pulled off the tie and she recommended I lose the slacks as well because they looked like I was coming from a funeral so I only wore the shirt that Ye Bin bought me with some pants Jonghyun had bought me when I first came."You ready?" Ye Bin peeked at me from the doorway and broke out into a big grin running inside into my arms."Your wearing my shirt!" I smiled back at her."Of course Princess." I grabbed her hand and we went down and told a maid we were going out for a bit and that we would be back by two or three, then we left."Is it far away?""Mhmm maybe a little far.""Can we go with our wolves?!" Ye Bin told me that her wolf was so cute, she was a coal black like her dad's wolf. She was immensely proud of her wolf."I can carry you.""I've never seen your wolf, pleasepleaseplease." She was tugging at my sleeve. It was obvious that I was a bit hesitant. After all I had never shown my wolf to anyone, well besides Leo but I was basically on my death bed that time, I was a little scared."How about." I squatted down "I carry you when you get too tired. Okay?" She pouted and just nodded her yes. I stood back up and tigthly held her hand hoping my silent apology would get through.I did have to pick her up and hold her after a while but we got there no problem. When we got there I let her play around in her wolf form. I was still in human form since it was much easier to watch over her. She was like a butterfly, running around and jumping high up into the sky. Picking flowers and letting them fall like showers from the sky.I just smiled as she played around in the flowers but suddenly I felt like we were being watched by someone. Like I should protect Yebin and when I inhaled I smelt it. Or rather them.Somewhere around two wolves were hidden. Shit.I got up quickly and tried to calmly leave with Ye Bin. If I tried to attack I'd be leaving Ye Bin alone and she was way too small to defend herself in any way. I need to leave. I need to leave now. Ye Bin's safety was #1 right now."Ye Bin I think it's time to go." I ran over to her and pulled at her hand."Aw. Why~" I gave her a very serious look which made her stop whining- choosing to pout instead. "Well can I pick flowers before we go?" she tried to negotiate."Now now but- I tell you what- I'll bring you back tomorrow and we can pick all the flowers for daddy our hands can hold. Okay." I grabbed her hand but as we tried to leave the two wolves I tried to get rid of, approached us. One looked male and the other was a dirt-coated female. They were blocking us so I growled at them placing Ye Bin behind me. Their eyes followed her movements, paying little to no mind to me. Of course, they were after her- not me.I bent down so only Yebin could hear me, while they looked for an oppotunity to attack."N?" Yebin grabbed n tightly to the back of my shirt.""Don't ask why Yebin, Just run." I pushed her and Ye Bin stated to run away, quick just like her father. Afraid that they would kill her I quickly took the male wolf off me and snapped his neck. While he whined I heard Ye Bin scream out and out of panic I turned into my wolf lunging towards the sound. The female had bitten Ye Bins side and she was lying in the grass. Angry I charged and bit the female in her neck until I felt my teeth hit bone and snapped her Spinal Cord.I quickly ran over to Ye Bin. He injury was not too serious but if I did not hurry she would definitely be in danger. I couldn't turn into a human- not right now. So carefully I coated the bite In my saliva and told Ye Bin to get on my back. She was screaming and she was obviously in so much pain, but I couldn't focus enough to change back- for now all I could do was ask her to hold to tight while I ran straight to the hospital. When we got there I burst into the ER still a wolf. The guards were frightened and kept I whinning at him until a doctor came and saw Ye Bin on my back.He immediately got her off me and brought her to a room. As for me I was left outside while they took her. Right away I ran back home, still a wolf. I bumped into a maid outside the house and showed her my back which still had blood on it."N?, N! Is that blood! Oh my god Ye Bin!!!" The maid ran back inside and I left sure she had gone to call Leo home where ever he was. Before I went back to the ER I changed to my human form and waited right outside the operation room door. After 30 minutes or so Ye Bin was rolled out and the doctor was talking to me."If you had not come as soon as you did the alphas daughter could have been infected or even worse.""Well thankfully I run very fast." I excused myself thanking the doctor again and went to go see Ye Bin. She was still unconscious, the doctor told me that she had gotten 57 stitches on her side so they had to knock her out. I sat on her bed and brushed her hair. Leo was a few states over, even at his fastest, no way was he coming tonight."I'm sorry. Really sorry. I'm really really sorry." I started crying really hard looking at Ye Bin just lying there. I was all my fault that she was here now and if Leo decided to kill me when he came I would let him. I'm despicable.I've never felt so willing to die before.They had given Ye Bin a private suite and said I could sleep with her so I fell asleep on the two seater in the room. It was uncomfortable to say the least. Around 6 AM the next day, Ye Bin woke up and I jumped up and rushed to her side."I'm so sorry Ye Bin." I kept on repeating but she held her tiny hands to my cheek. They were colder then usual, not like a normal wolf who's blood ran hot."Why are you crying mister." I broke down more and told her I was sorry again."Ow! N is this going to scar?" she was looking at her stitches with a small frown and a wrinkle in her brow. Even in this situation, Ye Bin was able to be so cute."Yes Princess, a little." I admitted. It would be constant reminder of what I had done to Ye Bin and it was going to haunt me forever. She started crying and I freaked out."I'm sorry! I'm sorry! please hit me if your mad. It all my fault and I'm so sorry! please don't cry Ye Bin! I'm really very sorry!" I kept on babbling."I'm going to be ugly!" She complained and I stopped crying out of shock. Ye Bin was not mad at me but she was crying because she was going to be ugly?"Am I ugly?" I asked her and she stopped crying for a bit."No. She sniffled.""Well I have lots of scars. So I should be very hideous.""You don't have scars?" Ye Bin looked really confused and I told her I would show her only if she promised not to tell anyone about them."These are scars I got whenever I was bad or got into and accident. If you promise to keep them between both of us I'll show you them." She nodded obliviously excited by the prospect of seeing my scars. I took off my shirt and sat on the bed so she would see my scars."There are so many!" I kind of grinned."Well I was a very bad boy." I felt her fingers tracing my marks and outlining my old scars. Her fingers were gentle, I had never seen my back but I imagine it was not a pleasant side to behold. Amazed that Ye Bin was not screaming, and was somehow calming. I turned around to show her some scars I had on my stomach as well but when I did I noticed Leo and some other men standing by the door staring at me. Quickly I tried to put on my shirt but Leo came in and proceeded to grab my arms."I'm so sorry!" I kind of shut my eyes to take on the impact from the soon to come punch but before I could feel him punch me another person grabbed me and turned me around. When I opened my eyes again it was Jaewhan and his eyes were blown wide opened staring at my torso like it was a foreign object... Staring at my...Scars...I proceeded to pull away and quickly put back on my shirt before my cheeks became inflamed."Bye Ye Bin." I ran out the room past all the big burley men.Before I could leave the parking lot of the hospital however Leo caught me by the hand."What happened?" He asked me with a very serious look. His voice had gone down a few octaves and I could tell he was a bit more then mad. HEY~~~~ YOU GUYS so THE NEXT CHAPTER. I refuse to tell you why I bolded that hahahaha (evil). Hope you enjoyed this.