Torn - Breaking up (1/1)

Sungyeol recalled spending over a month thinking, observing, checking information and thinking again. He thought a lot about the things Myungsoo had said to him and then, some days after, he decided not to sit still anymore, the answer was not going to fall from the sky in his lap. The first thing he did was search and talk to Sungjong. He found the maknae alone in their company texting and smiling crazily to his phone, once he got close enough the maknae noticed and got embarrassed, shoving the phone into his bag."Sungjong, I want to talk to you. I hope I am not interrupting your love date with your phone." He said and the maknae rolled his eyes."Can’t I have other friends? What it is?" He said annoyed, actually Sungyeol interrupted a very amusing conversation with his new very blonde friend."Sungjong, if I ask you to be utterly honest with me, like you never have been before, can you do this for me?" Sungyeol asked seriously but that didn't bother the younger."Honesty is my middle name, unfortunately not always you believe in me." Sungjong sassed him and Sungyeol winced with the younger words. "About that... I want to ask some questions please tell me the truth, ok?""Sure, shoot it. Just don’t insult me again." Sungjong advised, he was not going to accept that easily."Ok, the day you were supposed to meet with Haeun what happened? I want all details don’t hide anything."Sungjong looked at him in the eyes. Why would Sungyeol would want to talk about this again after over an year? They were already on speaking terms and even if Haeun and Sungyeol were still together, they were hanging out way more. Was it possible that Sungyeol was thinking about a break up? Well, that could explain why they were being distant from each other and Sungyeol was looking like a zombie most of the time."Are you sure you want to talk about this topic hyung?" Sungjong asked with raised brows."Yes, I am." Sungyeol assured the younger."Go all out without mercy, I need to know.""OK then. I was in the café we agreed to meet, I came a bit early and I knew I would wait for her. I had a book, I wanted to know what would happen in Game of Thrones new season, you know how I like this series. Anyway, I think I was too much immersed in the book and I was surprised when I looked at my phone and saw that it passed 3 hours since I got there. Then Haeun noona appeared with Joon hyung, they were giggling and holding hands and hugging, I saw him kiss her neck and pinch her butt. I was shocked. You know I hate her but I never thought she would do this to you. She came to me, demanded the money and went away the same way she came, clinging herself onto him. The rest you know, the money went missing, I didn’t took it, I was spending my time with Woohyun mom most of the time, she was teaching me to do simple things in the kitchen, I didn’t go shopping and if you really want I can show you my bank records.""This is not about the money anymore, Woohyun hyung lent it to me and I already repaid him. I will ask you for the last time Sungjong, is this the truth? Isn’t this a plot or something right?" The tallest asked just to be sure."Hyung what did she say to you? That I don’t like her? Yes, I don’t like her, she makes me mad, but it’s not only me, you kind of abandoned us, every one of your friends hates her, you should know something strange is going on when this happens. If I knew things would turn out like this I would have never let you talk to her the first time you met. She hates me too and I didn’t do anything to her. She is thinking crazy things on her own and wants to make you angry at me." Sungjong was talking and his face was getting red in anger. "Argh just thinking about that bitch makes me crazy.""Jong calm down." Sungjong took in a deep breath and Sungyeol continued with whatever he had to say to the younger. "You know I am not in good terms with Haeun right?" Sungjong nodded, he was dying inside to know why his hyung was on bad terms with the bitch. "I decided to look into the rumors about her, and take my own conclusions and this will influence in our relationship from now on. We may continue our relationship or not, at this point I’m not really sure. I spoke to someone and learned some things about her that broke my heart literally." Sungyeol had tears forming that he quickly wiped. "That’s why I am this way… but Jong I am tired, I am tired of being angry, I am tired of being sad, I have to take this decision very carefully, that’s why I need to talk directly with the sources of these rumors and I have to know who I should trust.""Gayoon noona wasn’t a bad girl but she surely would cover for Haeun noona anytime, mostly because Woohyun hyung hurt her pride and you are his friend. Joon hyung surely slept with her but I don’t know if he will tell you something. But…" Sungjong stopped not sure if he should continue."But?" Sungyeol insisted."There is a person that might know a lot about it and be willing to tell you.""Who?" Sungyeol asked desperately."Hara noona.""Her? I think she doesn't like me much." Sungyeol deflated."Why? Aside from being a gossiper she never did anything to you." "I don’t really know." The tallest admitted sheepishly."She likes Joon hyung and you kind of steels his jobs, you know that you deserve a lot more by the way, you learned from the best after all." Sungjong said and Sungyeol rolled his eyes."Way to self-praise yourself." Sungyeol gave him a half smile and Sungjong felt proud to be putting a smile on his hyung face."Well, somebody needs to do this and I don’t see you praising me. A.NY.way she might tell you something, I heard that she was dumped by him because of Haeun noona, so take the chance that she is mad and take the truth out of her." He advised.At that moment his manager approached and said that they had to leave, Sungjong quickly said his goodbyes and wished him good luck. He went away happy that Sungyeol may be wanting to get rid of the bitch, but a little sad that Sungyeol realized her flaws late. At least now everything hurt less than he was expecting, maybe he got over Sungyeol, he texted all his friends saying that Sungyeol might be thinking about a break up, the least he could do was spread this happiness around right?Sungyeol searched for Hara in their company since he was a bit in a hurry to take his decision, when he didn't find her he asked for the girl schedule and went where she was just to be able to talk to her. He only needed 20 minutes, he could talk to her if she was doing her hair or make up before her photo-shoot. Thank god when he arrived the girl was in front of the mirror with a makeup artist working on her face. She wasn’t ugly, much on the contrary, but today she was being scolded because her eyes seemed puffy."Sungyeol shi, what are you doing here?" She asked as soon as she spotted him through the mirror."I need to talk to you." He said as he came close and sat on the chair next to hers."Why would you need to talk to me? We don’t speak much." She asked coldly."About Joon." The girl immediately clenched her teeth."What about him?""You are close to him right? You would know a lot about him right?" Sungyeol tried to beat around the bush to not hurt the girl with his inquisitions."I was, I know a lot about him. So you are here to gossip with me? Any interesting stuff happening lately? Who did he slept with this time?" She tried to sound as normal as possible but Sungyeol could feel the anger in her voice."Well, you tell me, I’ve been hearing that he slept with my girlfriend." He now went to the point, he felt that the girl would like to end with this kind of conversation soon."Well, that depends on who your girlfriend is." She answered absent minded."Park Haeun." He said and she chuckled darkly."So you are the poor bastard that still dates her. I thought you already dumped her. Even if we aren’t the best buddies I acknowledge that you’re too good for her. She likes bad boys like Joon." She mocked."So she really did slept with him?" Sungyeol asked in a small voice."No, not only that. She is like dating him behind your back for about a year or more. They have what Joon likes to call a polyamorous thingy." She said the last words with so much disgust."Polyamorous thingy?" Hara words were a blow to his heart and Sungyeol couldn’t believe that he heard these words again."Yeah, you know when…" She was about to explain but Sungyeol got impatient."I know what it means. How do you know this?" He asked and she sighed deeply."Can you promise not to tell everybody? I don’t want to be a laughing stock because of this." She looked at him with distrustful eyes."Sure.""Ok. Joon is not a person to commit to a person only, you know that he sleeps around for his jobs, I bet everyone in this industry knows about this. When I met him I already knew how he was, but when my father passed away we kind of grew closer and somewhere along the way I fell for him. We began an open relationship, but we kept it a secret. I knew he slept around but the thought of him always coming back to me made me somehow endure it. Until the day I went to his apartment for you know… I had a day off, I saw your girlfriend there and I demanded to know what was happening. First Joon and I fought hard and she didn’t say a word, he said we had agreed on an open relationship and that’s why he was with her, but she went apeshit on us both. She rubbed on my face that they were together for good eight months before I came into the picture." Her eyes filled with tears and she quickly put a napkin on her eye to dry them before it could ruin the work of her makeup artist."She knew about me and she was fine with it. That hurt me, I thought that he only came back to me but she made me look like a fool, as if I was the one messing with her boyfriend, she went possessive and called me names. Joon somehow stopped her, because I was so shocked that I could only cry and my voice simply wouldn’t come out. I don’t even know how we came to this but when I regained my brain, they asked me if I wanted to be a ‘polyamorous thingy’. She said if I accepted that I would have the same status and she would respect me as his official girlfriend although we were not going to touch each other. I found it humiliating. I couldn’t stand anymore, I loved him so I was willing to let it go him sleeping around if I were to be the official one, but aside that he wanted two? I ended whatever was happening between us and she said ‘well, your loss’.""Hara-shi, I am really sorry to hear this, I can’t even apologize on her behalf…" Sungyeol said bitting his lips right after."Save it Sungyeol shi, don’t do anything on her behalf or I might slap you." She threatened."I know how you feel, I just found out about her cheating on me, I came here to confirm things with you.""So what are you going to do? Confront her?""I will." Sungyeol said determinedly."She won’t change, Joon also won’t change. They are sleeping around and we were the fools that believed in them. I think they look at us like nice accessories to show around. Look at them and look at us, we are all pretty we turn heads and that feeds their ego." She concluded."I will confront her but I didn’t say I was going to forgive her. I am going to break up. I only need to think how.""Are you afraid to hurt her after all I just told you? No Sungyeol-shi give her a painful breakup." Hara was in it for blood if she could."No, I am afraid about MYSELF. I don’t want to fall for her charms and change my decision last minute. I want to be firm. I need to think the best way not to hurt ME, I already spent a month and a half moping, and don’t you know my manager wants me dead because of these dark circles? I even had to go to the hospital for gastritis, I am on meds for god knows how long." He explained and the girl nodded."You still look pretty handsome though." She chuckled. "Sungyeol shi, let’s get close, I think we can be good friends. I think you can understand me.""Sure. I can’t possibly not like you now. Don’t cry please or you’ll get scolded for ruining your make up." He said wiping the corner of her eyes.'Yeah right." She quickly wiped the tears that were threatening to fall after she told her story."I am going now. Good luck on your photo-shoot.""No need for that, I am Sungjong female version, I kick ass." She smiled brightly and Sungyeol felt a big weight get out of his chest. Finally, he was sure about what to do.He grabbed his phone and decided to solve this situation once and for all. The sooner he talked to her the sooner he could move on right? The disappointment and sadness for over the past month was consuming and affecting other things in his life, he already suffered too much and already cried his eyes out because of this and he felt like he couldn’t take it anymore.If he stopped to think about the day their relationship ended, it was the day they slept with Myungsoo, he only needed to make things official now then he could focus on mending his broken heart. It took Haeun three missed calls and a lot tones for her to finally pick up the call."What?" She answered harshly."Haeun, it’s me, are you free now?" When she realized it was Sungyeol on the line her tone completely changed to a sweet sickening one."Sungyeol oppa, I’m out with a friend right now." It’s a lie, She was lying shamelessly, she is probably in bed with another man."A friend….?" He said in a doubtful tone."Yes a friend, can’t I hang out with my friends anymore?""Of course you can, it’s just I been thinking a lot about you. I want to see you." He decided to let all the talking for later."Oh." She sounded surprised."Oh…" He repeated sarcastically after her."Oppa, where are you?""Home.""I’ll go there when I finish with my friend.""Hmmm… Will it take long? I can see you another day if you want.""No, let's meet today, I miss you." Yeah right."OK then when you're done send me a message, I want to have a walk while we talk. Bye." He hung up before she could answer.Sungyeol tried to sound tired or sad on the phone to see if she would notice or get worried, but instead she didn’t even care and said she would come after she finished whatever she was doing. It took around two hours for Haeun to send a message which basically meant that he was her last priority. That thought got him sadder. He took his wallet and his keys and went out of home with a firm resolution: today he’ll have a definitive conversation with her. He just hoped that he didn’t change his decision at the last minute.He waited for her in front of their apartment building, when he noticed her in the distance, her hairdo was a bit messed up and it was pretty clear that she has been in some physical activity for her always perfect hair to be that way. That only meant one thing: she was having sex with somebody else when he called her."Sungyeol oppa." She skipped happily closer to him and pulled him down to give him a kiss but Sungyeol didn’t kiss her back, he felt disgusted by her kiss."Hi." He gave her a sad and tired small smile but she pretended she didn’t notice that."Oppa, I missed you so much." She hugged his arm close to her body."Hm. Did you have fun with your friend?" He asked making small chat as they started to walk.'You could say so." She said flatly but he saw her cheeks flush a bit. Fuck yeah, I had."What did you do together?" He asked."Why are you asking me that? You never cared about what I did alone with my friends." She asked suspiciously."It was just a question if you don’t want to answer is fine." He said tiredly."Well, we went shopping." She made up a lie."Why you don’t have any bags then?" He inquired."I ended up not buying anything this time. She wanted a dress to go to a wedding." Sungyeol decided not to press the matter, it wouldn’t make him feel any good because he knew she was lying, did she always lied like this? How he never noticed?"Oh, I see." Sungyeol went quiet, he couldn’t make small chat anymore he had to address the subject soon."Oppa, you’re very quiet today, you’re scaring me.""Sorry, I was just thinking.""Oh. About what?" She asked as if nothing was going on."Us." Sungyeol stopped walking and turned to face her. "I thought a lot and I think we shouldn’t continue with this relationship." He tried to say firmly but his voice came out a bit shaky."What?" She gasped."That’s what you heard. I think it’s better if we are apart." He repeated."Why?" She asked in a sad fake tone."Why? Haeun why? I can’t believe you have the guts to ask me why." He got irritated."If it is because of Myungsoo I already apologized." She tried."Haeun please just let me go quietly; I don’t want to fight you, this already hurts me too much." He pleaded but she was not going down without a fight."What about me oppa? Don’t you think a break up will hurt me?" She mustered her tears to make Sungyeol guilty but this time didn’t work, he was determined to go through with this."NO, I DON’T THINK SO." She froze on spot. She never thought that Sungyeol could raise his voice at her."You said that I shouldn’t cheat on you while I thought things through, but what have you done in this time? You called Myungsoo, only god knows who else you called to have fun." Sungyeol accused."How-how do you know that?" Her eyes widened in a mix of surprise and panic, was she caught red handed? Did Sungyeol really believe that? "How can you believe that?""He told me. He fucking told me." Sungyeol growled."You two talked?" Haeun gasped."Yes and he told me everything. He told me that you’ve been trying to get into his pants for more than a year. He told me that you insisted many times to have a night with him only, and you did the same thing after I asked for a time out.""He is lying." She accused trying to sound outraged."He isn’t. Why would he? He barely talks with people. From what I heard he lives to study and doesn’t date people from college, what could he gain with bad mouthing you?" Unconsciously Sungyeol defended Myungsoo even if he blamed the younger for his break up. If Myungsoo liked Haeun he wouldn’t benefit from bad mouthing her right?"You’ll believe him over me? I have been your girlfriend for almost two years." She said irritated."Yeah you were, I didn’t believe back then but Sungjong saw you with Joon. I finally put the pieces together and I went around asking, even Hara told me a lot about you two." Sungyeol started to walk back to their building and she grabbed his arm."No oppa, you can’t do this to me." "Why?" He freed himself but continued to walk without looking at her."Because… because… I love you." Haeun was at loss of words, she never imagined Sungyeol to break things off with her."Haeun, I gave you my heart, I invested time and everything else in this relationship. You took my love for granted and did a lot of things behind my back. I tried my best to be the best guy you could ever have." He felt devastated."I’m sorry, I am going to change. You’ll never hear weird rumors about me anymore." She pleaded."No you aren’t. Stop with these fake tears. Now I can see that everything you do is fake and I won’t fall for your tears again. You aren’t even guilty. I don’t even know why you’re still trying to be with me. You say that you’ll change but you’ll probably just hide it better." He accused her."No oppa, I’ll really change.""Haeun, I need to be loved just as much as I love. You know what? Now that I know that everything we had was fake I realize that I didn’t love you. I loved the thing you made me think it was you. I want to be in love with a real person, with a real heart that prioritizes me, that worries about my wellbeing. You don’t even ask how I’ve been in the past month and earlier on the phone you put me second place, you were clearly with another man." Sungyeol continued speaking and it was getting more and more difficult for Haun to find words that made Sungyeol want to stay with her."No-o-o oppa how can …" She was palling more by the minute."DON’T LIE." He shouted and ran his hand through his hair, he had so much anger now, how could she keep lying and asking for forgiveness? Did she expect to her lies to last forever? "How could you do this to me Haeun? I am so disappointed, tell me why everything I did for you wasn’t enough.""I… I…""You know what? I don’t wanna know. Here we are." They reached the front of their building again. "Go up. I want to go out and think some more.""But oppa…""Go up Haeun, it’s late. It’s dangerous for a girl to be alone on the streets at this time. Good night." Sungyeol started to walk away and Haeun was there about to cry this time with real tears when he suddenly turned around."Haeun, I wish that you find what you didn’t find in me."Sungyeol turned around and walked away from her without looking back, he needed to talk to someone. Once he was far enough he grabbed his phone, first he tried to call Woohyun but his phone was turned off. Strange. Then he tried calling Sunggyu but the older didn’t picked up his call, instead de the old hamster sent a message ‘Can’t answer right now, talk to you 2morrow’. He called Sungjong but the younger said he was studying for a mini test and helping his friend study at the same time. Since when Sungjong teaches? That’s new. When he asked if Hoya was home Sungjong just said he was in college finishing a group assignment. Dongwoo was the last person he wanted to call, the older had been acting strange lately, but his phone was also turned off.He groaned. Fuck, fuck, fuck. Here he was, with his heart all broken and a freshly ended relationship of almost two years and no one of his friends were available for him. What luck!"Fuck them, I need to get drunk."Sungyeol walked a couple of blocks until he found a bar he was sure he never visited before. If he never visited before, he had less chances to meet gossiping people from college there. He went inside and sat at a small table looking around a bit. The people who frequented the bar looked a bit older than him, they clearly had jobs and were there for an extended happy hour, there were people in suits and he was the only one underdressed. There was this older girl that was sitting not far from him alone with a bottle of Soju clearly looking tired. He almost offered himself to drink their sorrows together.He drank his first bottle rather fast. He was mad, he was sad, he was frustrated, he wanted to drink until he was able to forget her and feel numb inside. If he could, he would open his own chest and force Haeun out of his heart now.