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You"I'll be studying abroad." He said like it's the most casual thing in the world. I was stunned, I can't find the right words to say, and I can't even bring myself to react. "I'll be leaving next week." He continued. I haven't gotten enough sleep these past few days because of a nightmare. A nightmare that keeps on replaying inside my head again and again. I never thought that this nightmare will come to reality, and yes, that nightmare is about Luhan leaving me. He heaved a sigh. He reached out for my hands and held it tightly "I'm sorry." He said in a soft voice. What about us then? That was the first question that pops up in my head. Are you going to break up with me? I want to ask him, but I'm afraid of what he'll answer. I was lost in my own thoughts. I didn't realize that Luhan is now surrounding his arms around me securely. There was a heavy atmosphere between us, neither of us dare to make a sound. I can hear his heartbeat, it was soothing. Being this close to him right now makes me want to cry my heart out. I tried to speak, but no voice came out. I can feel the lump in my throat, but I tried to swallow it. Tears are now threatning to fall, and it's very painful to hold back."I'm sorry my princess, I'm so sorry." He said, breaking the silence. Why are you saying sorry? You're only leaving to study right? You're not breaking up with me aren't you? I was trembling uncontrollably and I think I'm gonna break down at any moment. "You're not breaking up with me aren't you?" I mustered enough courage to ask that question with a so-fucking-obvious-that-i-know-i-can't-take-answer. Please say no, please say no, please, just fucking say no and I'll be at fucking ease. "Are you kidding me? Why would I break up with you!" He shouted in disbelief. My knee wobbled, but his embrace tightened. I felt so relieve that all my anxieties faded.  He kissed the top of my head before pulling away. He lifted my chin and stared deeply into my eyes, his eyes were so perfect. He cupped my face lovingly and knocked his forehead on mine. We can feel each other's breath, on each other's lips, it was ticklish and I love it. We stayed on that same posture for a minute and I don't think that he understand exactly how much I want his lips pressed firmly against mine. And that was it, his lips crashed on mine when I closed my eyes. I found myself responding to the supposed-to-be-short kiss and affection. Luhan's hands rested on my cheeks stroking every inch of them. I couldn't control myself, it was wrong because we're inside the campus, but I don't care. None of us bothered to pause for a breath nor stop.  Luhan giggled. "I lied." He whispered between the shared kisses.Lied? I pushed Luhan gently away from me and the kiss came to an end. "I wasn't leaving." He chuckled. WHAT THE HELL? My jaw clenched as I ball my fists. "You....YOU'RE SUCH AN ASSHOLE!" I hissed at him, I didn't even care if I used an inappropriate word at him. He was laughing and he tried to pull me into a hug, but I slapped away his hands and walked away from him. "I can't believe you Luhan." I cursed under my breath. It was such a relief that I didn't cry because I know Luhan will make fun of me after he tells me the truth. Gosh I can't really believe him! It was a stupid joke, I hate him. God! I even kissed him that way. At least he's not going to leave me, but gosh! What is he trying to pull? That stupid Luhan.  I love him, Then I hate him, then I love him again, then he's a cunt, I still love him, he's a dick head, then I hate him again, but I still love him. Fuck.