06 (1/1)

Open this on new tab and listen as you read this chapter. www.youtube.com/watch?v=LKZYssbD9zM YouInstead of heading straight to my class, I found myself infront of Luhan's classroom. I've been sending him heaps of messages, but I didn't recieve any single reply from him, since last night after he walked me home.  "Uhhhm, excuse me, but you're blocking the entrance." I was startled by a deep voice. I turned around and saw a tall gorgeous guy infront of me."Have you seen Luhan?" I blurted, making me embarassed of my sudden act towards a stranger."I-I'm sorry for being rude and asking you all of a sud-" I was cut off."You must be Luhan's girlfriend." He said. The word girlfriend made the butterflies in my stomach go wild."Y-yes." I answered. "Wait, y-you didn't know?" He asked as his brows creased together. Know what? Before I could even answer he heaved a sigh and hand me something, I believe it's a letter. "He left" The guy muttered before entering their classroom. Left?  "My dearest princess,      I believe by the time you're reading this, I'm no longer around and I guess my flight took off couple of hours ago. Forgive me princess for lying, for covering up the truth with a stupid joke. I wasn't lying all along, me studying abroad? It's true. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for not saying a proper farewell, I'm sorry for making a fool out of you, I'm sorry for hurting you. Princess, I'm really sorry. I know that you're crying right now, but please don't cry. I'm not there to kiss away the tears and to craddle you in my arms until you finally feel better. You're in pain and I am too. I don't want to leave, but I just have to.         I'll be gone for years, but I'll definetely come back for you baby. I promise. Please be patient my princess. We'll be fine baby, as long as we love each other, distance doesn't matter. I will care for you, even if we're not together and even if we're miles away from each other. I love you so much, always remember that.   Luhan."   Stupid, stupid—to be so careless with our time, to believe we had so much of it left. My heart feels so heavy, I don't know how to carry it. Someone, someone wake me up from this bad dream. I was trembling uncontrollably as tears continuously stream down on my face. I sprint all the way outside the campus and made my way to the airport, convincing myself that maybe he was still there, maybe his flight got delayed, maybe, or maybe he was just standing there and waiting for me to stop him from leaving.  Just maybe.  It was when I met Luhan when I understood love songs and why couples danced with each other.

I understood kissing and why it was the most beautiful thing.

I understood why heartbroken people cried and why they stayed away from everyone when their hearts shattered because they needed their space to fill it with the voice of their lover who left and the memories to bring their hearts' pieces together then break them again.

It was when I ment him when I understood what life was all about and why people stayed late at night thinking about that someone. I was hardly breathing when I came to where he was. "LUHAN!" I shout as I search for him in a sea full of people. I trip, I fall, I'm being pushed by strangers with different faces, but that didn't stop me from getting back on my own foot even though I feel so damn weak.  You told me you'd stay with me until the very end Luhan. Then why? Tell me why you're leaving me just like this. You told me you hate it when I cry, that  you hate seeing me cry, but why are you the one who's making me cry all these tears that won't stop from falling? Why are you the one who's causing me so much pain right now Luhan? How can you give me so much strength, yet still be my only weakness. A thousand moments that I had just taken for granted—mostly because I had assumed that there would be a thousand more. This pain in my chest has been getting more and more difficult to handle. It hurts, it hurts so much that I feel like my chest will cave in and the only thing stopping it are the gasps of air I take in between the tears. I want to see him one more time, embrace him one more time, and kiss hime one last time before letting him go. "Luhan, if I begged you to stay. Would you?" I muttered in between my sorrowful sobs.

I felt warm all of a sudden, a familiar kind of warmth that comforts me, making me safe."Lu-Luhan?" I look up, but no. It was Sehun. "I'm sorry, I know you're disappointed seeing me instead your Luhan. I'm still your bestfriend and I can't stand seeing you so miserable like this. Stop crying now, I'm here." He said in a soft voice making me cry even more. I held on his shirt tightly and cry my heart out.  "He told me we'll be fine. We'll be fine right? Right Sehun?." I convinced myself, waiting for his answer, but I guess he took it as a rhetorical question. He cupped my face, looked in my eyes before pressing his lips on my forehead. He embraced me tightly and burried his face on my neck. I don't know what I feel about anything anymore. My mind is a mess, everything's a mess, I am a mess. Please make the pain stop, it hurts. It hurts like hell.  Luhan, please come back. Come back, be here.