Im Stupid (1/1)

Donghae’s POVThat bastard Lee Hyukjae!!I swear I hate you very much!You always make me miserable.After I had leaved him, I went to some restaurant.I had to release my stress and I needed something to eat.I couldn’t remember the last time that he was kind to me.I couldn’t remember the last time that he was smile to me.I couldn’t remember the last time that he called me ‘Hae’.I couldn’t remember the last time that He asked me to go to amusement park.What I remembered from him just the pains that were caused to me.I knew very clearly that he has never loved me.But he wasn’t so cruel back, but now he is such a bastard, a bastard that I really love. Flashback‘Hello.’ I felt that my back was patted by someone.I lifted my head and I met with a red boy that showed me his gummy smile.‘Why is you’re her red?’ I asked him.He smiled to me and said ‘I just like it.’ ‘What are you doing here?’ He sat down beside me.We were at the park now.‘Just sit and enjoy the view. How are about you?’ ‘I don’t have anything to do at home.’ I turned my head to him and I saw the loneliness in his eyes.‘My name is Lee Hyukjae. What’s your name?’ He asked me with his gummy smile.I don’t know why, but I like it very much.‘I’m Lee Donghae. Nice to meet you.’ We faced each other and smiled.‘Donghae, do you want to tell me?’‘Tell you about what?’ ‘Your scars.’ He whispered but I could hear his voice.Yes, my scars were every where in my body. You could see it very clearly.‘I got beaten.’ I smiled because I didn’t know what expression I had to give him.‘By who?’ He asked me softly.‘My father.’ ‘Why??’ He shocked from my confession.‘My mother was dead not long time ago. My mother was the one used to earn money, when my father just slept at home. When she had gone, my father forced me to earn money for him. I’m 5 years old for a God’s sake. What could I do?’ ‘Let’s run away.’ He cupped my face and turned it to him.‘What?’ ‘Let’s run away. Tomorrow I will move to Seoul. You can come with me.’ ‘But…. My father?’‘Just leave him. He never treats you nicely right? You can start your new life.’‘But, I don’t have money and I don’t know where to live.’‘You can live with me. I’m sure that my parents don’t bother at all.’ I really wanted to leave my father so badly. But, he is the person that I met only 15 minutes ago. Can I believe him?‘Believe me please.’ He faced me. I knew that he was not lying. I could see that through his eyes.‘Ok. But I have to go home firstly.’ ‘I come with you. I don’t want anything happen to you.’ He pulled my hand and we started walking.‘I’m a stranger. Why do you want to help me?’ I asked him.‘I don’t know. I just love your sparkling eyes.’ He ruffled my hair.‘This is my house. You can wait outside. I don’t want you to come to my house.’‘Why?’‘I’m afraid my father will know you and do something bad. If in 10 minutes I couldn’t get out from this house, leave me.’‘NO!’‘Please. It means that my father founded me.’‘OH MY GOD! Actually, you don’t have to come to this house.’ He looked so desperate, I knew.‘I want to bring something, something that my mom leaved for me.’ I released my hand from him and came inside.I came to the house and I saw my father was sleeping at the sofa. I walked slowly to my room and searched my bracelet. When I had found it, I came out from the room and wanted to walk outside. But there was my father outside my room.‘Where do you want to go dear? Trying to escape?’ I turned around and I got into my room again and locked it. I pushed anything at my room to prevent him coming. I knew sooner or later he would come. Think Donghae! THINK!! AH! WINDOW!I opened the window and I could see Hyukjae was waiting me outside.‘HYUKJAE!’ I shouted to him and he looked at me.‘What are you doing Hae? Come on!’ He panicked. I thought that he knew I was not in good condition.‘I will jump, can you catch me?’ ‘Oh my! You will jump from 2nd floor?’‘I will die too if I’m here. So let’s try.’‘Ok! 1..2…3… JUMP!’ When I was jumping my father came to my room. He saw me. He immediately run outside. I knew he would come in here in no time. ‘HYUKJAE! RUN NOW!!!!!!” I shouted to him and he saw my father came from the house.We run as fast as we could. We hided near the garbage.My heart liked wants to explode.‘Are you ok?’ He asked me.‘I’m ok. Thank you for saving my life.’ I smiled to him and he smiled to him. I finally came to my sense when I heard my phone was ringing.‘Hyukjae?’ What does he want?’‘Hello?’‘YAH LEE DONGHAE! WHERE ARE YOU? DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IS IT?’’11 pm? Why?’‘And why you don’t go home at this time?’‘Do you care?’‘What?’‘I asked you that did you care of me?’‘Of course no! I don’t have food at my apartment. You batter go home and make some food.’‘You can eat outside Hyukjae.’‘I don’t want. When I say go home it means that.’ He shouted again.‘Who do you think I am?’‘What? Ok Donghae, I don’t have time to debate about…’‘I’m not your slave. I’m human too.’ I cut him. ‘Are you drunk? Where are you? I will fetch you.’ He asked me.‘Yes I’m drunk and you don’t need to fetch me…‘Hyukjae… I want to be together with my mother. It must be beautiful.’‘Don’t do anything stupid Lee Donghae.’‘Just let me ask this to you. Who do you think I’m? Why did you help me at that time?’‘I..I..’‘You can’t answer? Yes, don’t worry. I know I’m not important to you. I am just your slave. You saved because you needed someone to take care of you right?’He didn’t answer me back.‘Hyukjae, you know what? It’s my birthday.’‘Your birthday?’ He asked me confusedly.‘You don’t know right? Hahahah… But thank you Hyukjae, today you made me realized something…..‘Do you know? I realize that I have made a wrong decision. Remember 20 years ago when you asked me to come with you? It’s better not to come with you Hyukjae…I felt my tear was coming out.‘My father tortured me physically. But you tortured my physic, my heart, my soul, everything. I better die at the hands of my father, rather than suffer in your hands’