A girl, a dying guy who taught her how to love, and a guy who will love her for days to come. ForewordWhen my boyfriend, Luhan was first diagnosed with brain cancer, I took everything in stride. We would brave through it together, I told him. And after that, we would have our happily ever after.But soon, the tumour started messing with the way his brain functions, and he became a completely different person. His personality totally changed.He used to speak to me gently. Now, when he talks to me, it is in the form of yells and orders. He used to hold my hand gently. Now, his grip is hard, possessive, as if I am nothing but an item to him.Even so, I held on. Because I believed that deep within, the Luhan who loved me dearly still existed. He needed me, and I needed him too. I didn’t know how to live without him.But slowly, I started to realize that the guy in front of me is not the same guy I fell in love with. He is a monster.So, when a new chance at happiness appeared in the form of Oh Sehun, I clung onto it, not thinking of the consequences. He is my solitude, my only bright spot in an otherwise pitch black life.But how long can I keep this up? How long till reality comes crashing in and shatter my illusion of happiness?And when it comes to that, which one would I choose? Loyalty, and clinging onto the hope that Luhan will someday come back, of a life I dream of having with Sehun, at the price of guilt?Kim Rin Chan"I desire the things which will destroy me in the end." -Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath  Oh Sehun"You didnt love her. You just didnt want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didnt love her. Because you dont destroy people you love." -Greys Anatomy  Luhan"The only thing worse than a boy who hates you: a boy who loves you." -Markus Zusak, The Book ThiefA/N: New story featuring you, Luhan and Sehun. Please suscribe if you like it! Gahh i suck at descriptions, hope you guys enjoy the story.