She let him go because she knew she could never have him. ForewordTo fall in a pit of sinful desire and affair was like putting your whole life in a gamble.     She tried to hold back but it was too late. She have tasted it and her hearts longing and craving for him.    But she chose to let go. Because she has to.    At the first place, she’s the mistress.       A/N: Former Title: To the Me I am Before