The painful truth behind the scenes... a look at the real (and uncut) life of GTop.  Thankyou for subscribing and being patient ^^   A/N:  So this is kind of my take on parts of Tabis history and stuff so incorporates certain real aspects of his past but with a GTop twist, yeah? You still with me? Soooo... its basically just my twisted little GTop fantasy mwhahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!  A/N2: Okay so I started writing The Painful Truth but I kinda wanted to do an uncut version too but it will be a little darker so prepare yourself. The reason Im doing this to be honest is because this version was the original version that I wanted to write but before I had the chance to tag it accordingly it already had subscribers. I understand not everyone would like to read this version so for those that had already subscribed I feel obliged to continue on with both...Thankyou for reading and subscribing and to those who comment I adore you! You make it so much easier for me to write... if that even makes sense lol Foreword I didnt want this... I tried so hard to be "normal" for the band but... it had become such a hardship that it was beginning to take its toll on my members. But I was the oldest. I was supposed to be the strong one...  I couldnt help the feelings I had for Jiyong... right from the start he was my style... my type from his attitude right down to those beautiful eyes and his amazing sense of fashion. I fell in love with him...