Fourteen. (1/1)

Two weeks passed. Everyone was talking about Junsus engagement, and he didn't give any statements regarding to it. I haven't had a chance to talk to him either, he's been away the whole time. Till today. He showed up behind my door, in the middle of the night, drunk. He looked miserable. We sat on my couch, and I was wondering what to say.. But suddenly he started talking."I'm supposed to marry a girl I don't love. And the girl whom I do love, doesn't want to be with me." He paused for a little bit, took a deep breath and continued. "She wanted me to choose between her and the stage." I was speechless. I was trying to find comforting words but nothing came to my mind. "That's.. Horrible." I said and that sounded horrible. Very weak try to comfort someone. It was quiet for few minutes till I continued: "I seriously don't know what to say, or do. I'm not very good with words, but if you need a shoulder to cry on, I'm here." He took it quite literally and leaned on my shoulder and said: "You don't need to say anything, I just needed someone to talk to." I stroked his hair and told him it's alright, he could say anything he wanted. I'd listen. And so he continued; "She said dating an idol was too hard. And I chose my dream. I don't regret it, I love what I do, I love my fans, I love the stage, but I am greedy and I also wanted to have her." That's just so sad.. He wasn't crying but I felt like I would cry soon. I was seriously bad at this. "And this girl my parents want me to marry. She's really sweet girl, and she loves me.. But I don't wanna accept her if there is still someone else in my heart. It wouldn't be fair." He stopped talking and started breathing heavily. He's asleep? I kept stroking his hair, he seemed so peaceful while sleeping. Not sad at all. Wish that was the case when he was awake too. I carefully put him down on the couch and covered him with a blanket. Let's hope everything is at least a little bit better tomorrow.