Divergent (1/1)

WARNING:  Heavy Swearing Involved Hakyeon POVThe clearest memory I have is when I was four. Probably because that was when my life took the sharpest turn to hell...I was raised by an old grandmother. I remember her picking me up and spinning me around. I remember feling her kisses on my cheek and I remember her Lavender scent. There was one memory I cant seen to forget about our Grandmother- It was her fur. It was like a  beautiful Burnt Copper color. And so soft as well. Often she would let my sister and I just play with her fur or even fall asleep on her wolf for the night.When I was about four, I remember our mom. Truthfully she was always there but she never stuck around for very long until we were four. I was awoken by a noise in the middle of the night- well it was dark anyway- and I started to cry. My crying woke my sister up who called for our Grandmother but she wasn't coming. My sister consoled me instead and the door to our room slammed open."What the fuck are these fucking kids doing here?" The lady who had almost broken the door yelled at our grandmother and I started to cry again. Which wasn't a good thing"Hey old woman, will you shut him the fuck up?!" She yelled and grandmother pushed her aside to come comfort me. The mean lady left the room still grumbling and Grandmother put us both to sleep. When I attempted asked her who the mean lady was she laughed"She's not always so mean Hakyeon. She's just...stressed and her name is Aurora. My daughter.""So does that mean she's our mom?" Seungyeon spoke up."...Yes darling that's your mother- she's been away for such a long time she hasn't been able to see you two grow up." She smiled sweetly at us"Such a shame you two haven't been able to remember much of her since she's always so busy working..." She huddled us up on my bed and all the worry we originally had melted away in her warm arms. She slept with us that night.The next morning when Seungyeon and I woke up, grandmother was gone so we went to look for her, when we go to the kitchen we met Gi Kwang. Gi Kwang was built with weird markings on his arms and when he saw us he smiled- exposing a gold tooth on the side of his mouth."Who are these little cuties Aurora?" We looked at our mother who was lighting something up and blowing smoke out of it."Just some fucking pups my fucking mom brought home with her." She handed the lighter to the man who took it and smiled down at us again."You two hungry?" Seungyeon, who was not as scared as I was nodded and the man told Aurora to fix us 'breakfast or somethin'"Gi Kwang if your so fucking interested in these brats then who don't you fucking do it?" He walked over to her and slapped her in the face. He force of it knocked her out the chair and she timidly got up and made us breakfast.Seungyeon took the plates from her and took me to our room. When I asked her why we were eating here she told me"I don't like that man- I don't want you to be near him." So we stayed in the room and ate our very sad sandwiches.When I was five I met Gi Kwang again. Except I was sick and Grandmother had taken Seungyeon out to buy a new dress. I was delirious from the cold so I felt like I was dreaming when I saw a tall dark figure enter my room.Grandmother? (Remember that Hakyeon is mute so his pats will not be in Quotation marks)"Shhhh. Aurora told me to check on you." It was Gi Kwang and he sat besides my bed wiping my sweat off with the towel. He took the water and went to go exchange it and before he left he held my hand and made promise not to tell anyone that he had visited. I saw no reason not to tell anyone so I told Seungyeon who told me not to tell the adults yet.When I was better Gi Kwang took Aurora, Seungyeon and I to a local restaurant. He was way nicer than Aurora who was too busy complaining to enjoy the food. He even gave me a piece of his tenderloin steak. It was juicy and kind of good."Do you like it Hakyeon?" Gi Kwang smilled at me and Seungyeon frowned."I want some too." She asked Gi Kwang and he laughed"I didn't want to ask because I thought you hated me." Gi Kwang cut off a bigger piece than mine and gave it to Seungyeon who smiled up at him brightly.I don't think Aurora appreciated us taking Gi Kwang's spotlight from her because she became more hostile towards us.After we had our meals grandmother took us to a secluded area of the forest. Since I can remember Grandmother had been teaching us how to properly control our wolves. It was soon found out much to her relief that unlike other wolves we did not need to change for long periods of time.  This, she said, was absolutely nessesary and that we must never ever show our wolf forms to anyone but her.We, of course, obliged and tried our hardest not to change. She warned us that if we were ever seen as wolves we would be taken away from her forever. I think I cried until I fell asleep when she told us that. Ha.One day only Seungyeon and I were in the house and Gi Kwang came to visit. He had brought us teddy bears and a tub of ice cream. Aurora walked in, in a really short dress that made her legs look long and slim. "What's the big fucking celebration?" She sat at the rickety table and pushed my doll off the table. I got off my chair dusted it off and picked it up- this time holding it to me like Seungyeon was." I got a new job and I wanted you guys to be the very first to know." He kissed Aurora on the cheek but she wanted more. She grabbed him and kissed him on the lips the weird sounds make me feel uncomfortable."We shouldn't do this in front of your kids." Aurora gave us a once over."Who the fuck give a shit? If they want to watch- let them. It's better to learn now than later ain't it?" But Gi Kwang wasn't having it. He pushed her on the floor and told Seungyeon to take the bears upstairs and wait until he called us back. We did and like 10 minutes later he brought us back. We looked at Aurora who was now on the couch with a bag full of ice on her cheek. Her eye was red and swollen as well. Gi Kwang told us to sit and her served us the ice cream."Thank you." Seungyeon told him soon forgetting our fear and enjoying our ice cream cones. Not a week later Aurora came into the house in a frenzy. She was hysterically crying."What happened?""I'll tell you what fucking happened. That Mother fucking BITCH Gi Kwang ran off with my fucking money, my friend and put my name under a shit ton of his fucking debt. I'm fucking ruined because of that fucking assholes!"Not a day later did tax collectors come to our house. Everyday they would come and threaten us. Even going so far as to offer a job to Seungyeon."Hey, she's pretty- you could let us give her a job then you can pay us back." Both Aurora and grandmother said no way to the offer. On a rainy day though the  debt collectors got a little bolder.Grandmother was preparing to bath Seungyeon and I but before we got undressed a banging was coming from the front door."Stay here." She warned us and we did. Seungyeon went and locked the bathroom door just in case. She told me to stay absolutely quiet as well.Suddenly we heard a loud thud and the sound of people running away. About ten minutes later Seungyeon led me outside where we saw it. The door was off the hinges, the living room in a mess and on the floor, Grandmother lay.I ran to her and we shook her and tried and tried but Aurora had to come home and pull us off of her and throw us in our room. She even locked the door and ignored our cries to get out.We were stuck with no food and no water for the whole day. I had relieved my bladder twice already but Seungyeon was in much more control of her bladder. Seungyeon had to dress me twice before Aurora finally let us out and sat us down to eat."Where's grandmother?" Seungyeon asked while looking at her mushy cereal.Aurora paused what she was dong and slammed her fist on the counter top. She curtly turned towards us, knife in hand."You blind little fucking bitch. Are you blind? You didn't see that she's fucking dead?" I began to cry again and Aurora slapped me across the face."Stop your fucking whining you little bitch. God your worse than your dumb ass sister!" Mother was often drunk and often annoyed one day I stepped on glass so I wouldn't stop crying and she got really angry."Stop crying you useless brats." She threw a bottle towards the eldest of the two, Hakyeon. The old mother had named them Hakyeon and Seungyeon."Why did my mother name you Hakyeon? Huh?" She grabbed up Hakyeon who, despite being eldest was the weaker of the two. She raised her hand and slapped me across the face with so much force I fell down. Whenever I cried The hits continued until I learned never to cry in Aurora's presence. Of course Seungyeon told me that I could always cry in front front of her and that she would never hurt me. Ever. We were six at the time.When we were six the debt collectors came again. Usually Aurora was all kind and gracious about it but her job had fired her and she was not in the mood. Though she had kept us 'safe' since grandmother had died she easily bargained us off to the debt collectors. If they wiped the debt completely she'd let them take Seungyeon and I. They agreed and tied us up. We kicked and screamed for our mother to save us but instead she ushered them out and slammed the front door on our faces. And so we watched the house get smaller and smaller as a black car drove us away.When we arrived at our destination the men dragged us to this luxurious home but instead of the front entrance we took the back. On our way to where ever, I saw maids and luxurious furniture. We were making our way down stairs and the walls were made of stone. There were cells- some of them filled. We shrank behind he guards as some of the prisoner cursed and yelled to be released. We go to the end of the hall and the guard threw us in a cell with a small bed and a table."This is were you'll be staying until our glorious master has decided what to do with you two." The guard left. Every day we'd get water and food. The food was only one serving but we shared it amongst both of us. Sometimes, Seungyeon would go hungry and force me to eat."It makes no sense that were both gonna starve- Hakyeon eat."But. What about you Seungyeon? I was beginning to cry again but Seungyeon put a piece of bread in my mouth."Stop crying. I'm fine- eat." Seungyeon kept track of the days by counting them out and writing them on the prison walls.Only a month passed by when a man dressed in royal garb came for us with two guards. After tying us up real tight he led us to this ominous room. In it, a man lay on the huge bed. Smoke came from one of the many machines in the room.The man was squinting pretty hard to see our faces but he suddenly opened his eyes wide. He whispered something to the man who had brought us and the man told the guards to take us outside the room and to stay there until he said come in.They had a lengthy conversation and then we went back in. The man who had brought us up told the guards to put collars around our necks and to bring us back to the dungeon. This time instead of clean water and good food, we were fed the bare minimum and water that had bugs floating in it. We saw a leaf there one day and it tasted like plants. Seungyeon told me that it was probably rain water. A week later two children came down to see us. Seungyeon was consoling me after I had accidentally eating a live bug and was freaking out. I looked up to see the boys just beyond the cage. They were twins like we were but both were boys... I think. The shorter one looked rather girly but he was wearing shorts as well. I hid behind Seungyeon and I couldn't help but look at the taller one. His face was so small and he had the same skin tone as I.The smaller one shook the bars and Seungyeon turned around in shock. The boys smiled at us gleefully before pulling out a set of keys, which I found out unlocked the cell's doors."How old are you?" The boy stuck a hand out for us."Eight..." Seungyeon didn't take it instead holding me a little tighter. The taller boy looked shocked that we were eight. Which I don't blame him. We were both small."Get up." The shorter one instructed us but when it was obvious that Seungyeon wasn't gonna, the taller boy got in he cell and pulled her up roughly. I got up at once to try and pull her back but the taller on pushed me. I fell back on the floor and the shorter one locked me back in the cell"Why aren't you taking my brother as well?" She looked back to me as I crawled to the closed cell doors, rattling them to be let out as well but they both just pulled her along.I sat in the cell crying an hugging my knees to my chest. It was the first time ever that I had been without Seungyeon and I was scared out of my mind.When Seungyeon came back she comforted me and made me fall asleep. The boys kept coming to take her which she refused until they said they would bring me as well. Both boys ignored me completely choosing to play with Seungyeon like she was a doll.It wasn't two weeks later that Seungyeon and I were taken to upstairs and pampered. The maid bathed us and clothes us in fancy outfits. They even laid out outfits and gave us our own room. It was small compared to the room that Min Gi and Zitao led us to."Oh~ You two looks so nice~" Min Gi came in with Zitao as we were finished."Thank you Alpha." Seungyeon said, shocking both of them and making her blush."Don't blame me! Your stupid mother told me to call you Alpha *Even though your not mine*" She grumbled at the end but Min GI still heard it earning her a slap which made me cry out."Your such a dumb mute." Min Gi laughed cupping my face and squeezing it slightly before letting me go.Seugyeon looked at Zitao from the floor but then got up and brushed off the dress."Weakling." Seugyeon whispered but we all hard it thanks to our wolves and Min Gi slapped her down yet again."Only I can mess with my brother, you better learn manners and lower your eyes when you talk to us little one." I know Seungyeon. She would rather kneel over than address someone younger than her so respectfully. Especially someone as cruel as Min Gi.Min Gi and Seungyeon would often argue, sometimes about foolishness but I assume that Min Gi liked that about her. He hated me though and when he wasn't ignoring me he was pushing me to the ground or hitting me while Seungyeon wasn't watching. One time Zitao held Seungyeon back while Min Gi kicked me again and again.Often times the assaults would happen in the night and Min Gi would treated me with death if I told Seungyeon about it. So I didn't.He would always yell at me for not talking so I associated his anger with my talking and Seungyeon taught me how to appease Min Gi. He was a simple person who was easily pleased like a small child.One day a group of boys visited the castle they all looked of very high birth and I was surprised when one of them ran up to Zitao to hug him. Curious I looked at the boy who stood on the side lines."This is Seungyeon and her wimpy brother." Min Gi introduced us, showing obvious contempt for me.Through out the day I kept peeking at the boy. He was pale with very dark hair. His cold face and stiff posture made him stand out to me. Which I was looking at him I caught his eye.  The other boy, the one who had ran to Zitao looked at him as well then turned his attention back to the chess game.Zitao also sat with Taekwoon, his tanner skin a contrast to Taekwoon's pale one but his feature also stood out more to me. His sharp gaze and red lips. Both of them looked so good together...I was so busy playing that we didn't see Seungyeon kickover the tea set on Min Gi's shoes. I tried to wipe it off but Min Gi kicked me away and yelled at Jaehwan.When he called Jaehwan a 'half-blood' Taekwoon got really angry. They fought but Taekwoon was so calm and collected. After warning Min Gi who was still acting like a big shot he left. And everyone left with him as well.The next time I saw the boys we were 16 and at a meeting for all the Households. lot's of unfamiliar wolves were there so Seungyeon and I stuck close to the Alpha and his children.I noticed how the older version of the boys we had gotten to know years ago looked at Seungyeon. Of course we were all at the age of mating and I had no doubt in my mind that they all wanted to mate with her. However Seungyeon reassured me that she would not mate until I did. Even if I never did-she was here with me.Zitao was another guy who fell for Seungyeon. Often she would talk to him while he was alone or if Min Gi was busy. I'd often catch him staring at her as well but when he caught me staring at him I looked away. While Min Gi was pretty Zitao was handsome. His face had grew handsomely and his eyes held a soft of cold charisma about them...Often Seungyeon would leave our room to walk in the gardens,this night was a little different though because she would usually wake me to tell me where she was headed. Instead I was awake as she left so I followed her secretly. She went up to the roof and Zitao was up there as well which surprised me."Oh! Zitao! I didn't know th- sorry." She was bowing but Zitao didn't tell her to go away instead-"I would like it if you stayed." I was shocked to see her take his hand and even sit down. I was about the get closer when they started talking."You know our ancestor used to howl at the moon?" Zitao began"Why?" They looked at one another."Well. My teacher told me that the Giant Wolves, before they could transform, believed that the Moon was a playful spirit that loved to hide." There was silence but somehow it felt welcoming... What I saw next shocked me beyond words. They both closed in for a kiss and minutes passed before they broke apart. I was so shocked I simply went back down and went to bed. About two hours later Seungyeon also returned to bed but I was too afraid to ask her what I saw.The next few days were so cumbersome. I wanted they very best for Seungyeon and I knew she genuinely loved Zitao so I tried my best to keep Min Gi busy. I would let him hit me and play with me however he wanted if it meant I could protect my sisters love.And with my help the love grew. However I was beginning to feel lonely- because Seungyeon was no longer paying much attention to me...One day after a nap in the gardens Min Gi strapped me down in a chair. He was a barber- he claimed- and pretended to cut my hair. Next he strapped up Seungyeon but actually cut her hair. Up to her shoulders. The torture didn't stop there. Min Gi had found a new way to play with us. While I kept him pre-occupied he would burn me with things and while he played with Seungyen he would often burn her as well. Thankfully that burn marks healed up rather nicely because of our wolves.After the twins 17th birthday Seungyeon fell ill. She was barely able to eat and she would often cry at night. I would hold her and comfort her. I barely left my room. I didn't care if Min Gi and Zitao were mad- I just wanted to be there with her...After a few days the illness wouldn't let up and I began to get scared when Seungyeon would throw up, sometimes nothing. If I were to lose her, where would I stand? Out of the two of us I was the useless crybaby. I was always messing it up while she was perfect beyond belief. A month passed and Sungyeon had not improved. I knew that Zitao would often visit her so I laid there, pretending so sleep as I heard his cry over her limp body. One day, Seungyeon coughed up blood and terrified I called on the maids to help, no I begged them but no matter how much I tried they would ignore me. So I quickly ran to Zitao and Min Gi. Min Gi was playing with something while Zitao read. I looked only at Min Gi as I begged and pleaded for him to help my sister. That I would do ANYTHING. Of course I had trouble voicing my opinions. Even as my sister lay dying I could not speak and I was cursing myself for it. Min Gi looked to me with fake concerns"I wonder it's the wolf's bane we fed her last week?" my eyes grew wide at this. I didn't wait for him to finish or to laugh in my face. I simply ran to my sister. How could Min Gi even do this to Seungyeon. He was always playing with her the most! I checked every part of Seungyeon. In small doses Wolf Banes could make a wolf violently ill but just a little bit more could kill you. I didn't know how much they had given her. I was so scared.And so a week passed; the days blended into each other and I had to watch as the only person I had in this world died. She clutched onto me as I held her in my arms. Even if her blood was staining my shirt I held her and cried and cried. I must have been there but a day when a maid came to check on me."Oh my!" I had been laying there, clutching onto the lifeless body of Seungyeon for two days now. The maid tried to pull me off of Seungyeon and I started to kick and scream finally bulky men came and held me down so the maids could take Seungyeon away I didn't even have enough energy to fight the men off.I was forced to play with Min Gi but I avoided Zitao. He had let her die and I thought he'd loved her the same way she loved him How wrong I was... But I was wrong about that too.The next night Zitao came to my room in the middle of the night. Hem ust have thought I was asleep or did not care because he clutched the now cold, and empty sheets of Seugyeon's bed. This was the first time I had seen Zitao cry. Not caring bout him getting mad I quietly came to hit and hugged him from behind. Instead of pushing me away he turned to me and clung to me as if life depended on it. And we both cried together for a while until I fell asleep on Seungyeon's bed and he left.I began to follow Zitao more than Min Gi, of course Min Gi did not like this and would beat me up even more when he was upset. But he hardly had time now that he was getting ready to become alpha. Zitao lent me books to read and gave me stuff to write. Soon both boys turned 19, I had turned 20 only a few days ago but my birthday was not celebration worthy. Anyway I was there when both twins refused to mate. Well Zitao refused at first and since Min Gi was currently obssesed with all things Min Gi he refused as well.When the ceremony was over it was night time and the current alpha Dong Woon told me to retire to my room. While I lay asleep I felt a hand shake me awake. When I turned around a dark figure was sitting on the bed."Hakyeon..today I'm going to play with you." It was Zitao. he told me that it was the next morning and told me to go wash up- hair included/ It wasn't very often that Zitao was this nice to me but honestly if getting beat sometimes meant I was loved sometimes as well...it was fine.I dried my hair for me and talked with me and the towel thankfully hid the blush I knew I was sporting. I knew this nice Zitao would only last for a short while though because I reminded him too much of my her. I was too 'cute and innocent' I was 'too much like Seungyeon' and tht made Zitao hate me even more."Today my father wants to see you again..." I froze under the towel and when Zitao tried to remove it I just pulled the fuzzy towel closer to cover my face I was reminded of the last time I had disobeyed orders. On that day Min Gi ordered me to change into my wolf. Of course I had been taught and warned NEVER to change in front of ANYONE and adamantly refused."Do...I-I have to?" And because I refused Min Gi beat me senselessly.Snapped back to reality I followed Zitao to his fathers chambers bowing as we entered. The creepy guy only looked at me ushering his son to leave us. Zitao bowed and left- the door closing was possibly the loudest sound ever. Dong Woon made me strip and as I stood there freezing told me to lay down on the bed. When I did he felt up my body. He claimed it was to make sure I was totally healthy and worthy to protect his sons but all I wanted to do was crawl away to my room and cry. When it was over he let me put back on my clothes and told me to leave.I cried in my room later.It happened more after that. I heard it from the maids that he was checking what kind of wolf I was. Both and alpha and a beta could harm his kingdom. What I was most afraid of however was becoming an Omega. I had listened to the maids and when you became an Omega you went into heat and it could only be sated by your mate or an Alpha. I didn't have a mate- I was sure no such thing existed... And an alpha? I would die if that creepy old man touched me again- or even worse Min Gi...After he had deemed me to be a normal wolf I was put back into training with the other wolves. And through it everyone was able to discover my strength. Despite my small stature. At first it angered Min Gi who beat me up and then when the old man found out her took my to his chambers and whipped me-naked. He made me promise to only use my strength to protect his sons- even at the cost of my own life. He beat it into me that I was but a toy for his sons to play with.Everything was going great- I'd been well feed. The maids had given me a bigger room, closer to the twins and I was getting stronger from all the training. In the middle of training on day however a sharp pain came on my side. I dropped my equipment but the pain only got worse. It turned into a heat and traveled all over my body until I was no longer able to stand. I was gasing for air on the floor as the others looked on in worry and confusion. "Are you having you heat?" No. no no no no no no. This wasn't possible. Omega's got their heats when they turned 17 why. Why was I getting it now- at 20?!"I'll take him." I heard an ominous voice hover over me and I couldn't struggle as the man took me in his arms and carried me off."I-I'm fine..." I was terrified by the thought of Dongwoon taking me to god knows where. We stopped in a room and he closed the door behind us."Tonight I'll take care of you." Dong Woon threw me to the bed and ripped of his shirt in haste.Even though I begged and pleaded to be released he ignored me stripping himself as he warned me to stay on the bed as he did. I was bound by an Alpha's words and I began to cry as his length emerged from his pants. I saw him lick his lips and he pulled down my pants. The pain was incredibly- he hadn't even gotten me prepared to take him all in- he just entered me. I screamed out in pain and he began to move inside me. I fell unconscious along the way and when I woke up I felt my heat gone. A sticky substance all over my back, i felt so dirty. Like paint had been put on my back and there was no way to wash it off."Leave." Dong Woon told me and I got up. I got my pants which were on the floor and put on my unbuttoned shirt. It wasn't until I got in my room that I noticed that I was bleeding. I hopped in my bath and proceeded to cry. Feeling so very used.The next day the same thing happened. After practice Dong Woon came to get me and forced himself onto me again. This time however a maid carried me to me bed and wiped off all the blood and semen on me."Thank you."  was all I said before fainting yet again. Dong Woon did this for the week, the first two days he had cummed on my body but the following days of that week, he knotted in me. It was so painful and opened me up way more than usual. He told me that I was soon gonna be 'pregnant' but weeks passed with no news. When Dongwoon got me checked the doctor told us that I was a barren Omega. Which angered Dongwoon and he forced me to do sexual favors for him all night.Of course my 'relationship' with Dong Woon did not go un noticed by his wife. She would hit me as well. And any time she felt angered or horny she'd call on me as well. I would have to pleasure her as best as I could. Sometimes she would cuff me to the bed and pleasure herself while using my body.So now I was a toy for the whole family...So my days went like this:Put up with Min GiPracticePut up with Zitao and his wish washy-nessAnd then get molested by either their mom or their dad.SO OH MY GOSH I LITERALLY TOOK THE WHOLE DAY TO WRITE THIS AND I FEEL SO LOST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THIS IS A TERRIBLE CHAPTER. WHY. I'M REALLY FEELING TERRIBLE FOR HAKYEON RIGHT ABOUT NOW.Okay so Updates: IF YOU HAVE NOT GO CHECK OUT MY OTHER STORIES. WARNING!!! Contains lots of smuts because I use to write THOSE types of fanfictions lol. I'm gonna be making a WHOLE lotta VIXX related fanfics because as a StarlightTHERE AREN'T ENOUGH!!!!P.S. I'f you want me to make a one shot about any other under-loved group out there given me shout out!!! I plan to do a fluffy one on MYNAME soon~- whenever soon is...