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Lee Hyukjae’s POV  ‘HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF! YOU’RE SHIT!!’I heard Kyuhyun’s voice clearly in the phone. It’s not funny right? How could he say that Donghae had tried to kill himself?? He was not that type of person.‘Are you trying to fool me Kyu?’‘WHAT?’‘Stop shouting at me and just tell me you’re lying! ‘‘HAHAHA! You have gone crazy Hyukjae.’‘I’ve known him 20 years and I know clearly that he didn’t brave enough to do something like that.’‘Lee Hyukjae! I only say once this to you and listen carefully. I don’t know the exact reason why he did something like this, but I’m sure you have parts of his action. I don’t want to blame you but I really want to kill you because you’re a fucking brat that doesn’t have heart. I will give you another chance, come to the hospital now or let him go forever from your life.’He had hang-up before I said something to him.Should I go? But… Kyuhyun was lying right?? Donghae is in the office now. Yes! Kyuhyun was lying to me!I tried to call to the office.‘Good morning sir, can I help you?’‘Is Donghae there?’‘No, he isn’t. He hasn’t come to the office sir.’‘Ok thank you.’ He wasn’t at the office.I tried to call his phone and he answered it.‘YAH! Donghae! Where are you? Why you haven’t come to the office?’‘I’m Kyuhyun stupid! Cih! You still don’t believe right? Fuck you life and your slow brain.’I knew clearly that it was Kyuhyun’s voice. But why he answered Donghae’s phone?Is it true that Donghae was trying to kill himself? But why??Should I go to the hospital and check if it’s true?But if it is true and I had seen him in a really terrible condition, I would have screamed from my lung that I loved him.I don’t want that happen, before I’m sure about my heart.But, is he ok? How could he kill himself? Is he crazy or something??I finally decided to visit him. The idea of losing him forever is bigger than my pride and confusion. I hoped Kyuhyun was lying to me.I drove my car, but when I’m getting close to the hospital my heart started beating so hard.Is he ok? Is it true? He didn’t kill himself right? I must be dreaming!I parked my car and got out. I walked to the hospital and I suddenly felt that I was surrounded by a bad aura. I do not know why, but I just wanted to get out of here.Donghae is not here, why I had to come to this hospital??Donghae is fine. Maybe he is sleeping on his bed now. He was too tired yesterday.I turned my body and started walking out from the hospital. But suddenly I run to the information. I didn’t know why but I knew that I have to see with my own eyes. I kept thinking positive since I had heard this from Kyuhyun. But I couldn’t deny that I was worried as hell.‘Excuse me, whether a patient named Donghae?’Say no please! NO NO NO!!!!!!‘Lee Donghae? Oh yes, there is sir.’BAM! Suddenly I felt my world was upside down. My legs were shaking. No! There’re many Lee Donghae in Korean.‘Did he go to the hospital for attempted suicide?’‘Oh yes sir, he came this morning and now his is still in ICU.’I felt my had spinning. I grabbed the information’s table really hard.‘Are you ok sir?’‘Was he born on 15th October 1985? He lives in the apartment near Cheongdamdong and the one who brought him to this hospital was Cho Kyuhyun??’ I shuttered, I kept denying that the Lee Donghae who this nurse was talking about, was not MY Donghae.‘Hmm.. Yes, that’s true sir. Are you his family?’My mind was blank. I couldn’t think anything. Yes, I finally accepted it. Lee Donghae, my Hae is in the hospital now and I’m the one who made him like this.I walked to the ICU room. I’m sure in anytime soon my tears would come out soon. I couldn’t describe me feeling.I’m not worthy to life in this world. How could some shits like me life?? I promised to protect him, but what could I do?Because of my stupid brain and shit pride. I saw Kyuhyun was sitting on the chair in front of ICU room.‘Kyu?’ I whispered but loud enough for him to hear me.He saw me, ‘Oh you’re finally here.’He smiled weakly to me. I could see his eyes full of sadness. I walked towards him and put my hand at his shoulder.My hand was shaking, my body was trembling.‘Do not pretend to strong Lee Hyukjae. I know you are very depressed right now. Do not try to console me and say that all will be fine because you're much worse off than I am now.’With that word, I fell to the floor and screaming like crazy. I do not care if people said that I was crazy, I did not care I was scolded by someone else, I do not care about anything else at this time. I cried like crazy. Sick! My heart is very sick! Painful! My heart is like a cut to pieces by the blades, torn apart, burned. My chest feels full. Full of remorse. I cried even more and more pain is coming. What should I do?I felt Kyuhyun hugging me and I started crying in his embrace.‘I’m Stupid! Fool! Dumb! Selfish! Damn it! Idiot! Devil! Satan! Dirt! Shit! Sinner!’I pulled my hair desperately and kept replaying that word.‘Calm down Hyukjae. Calm down please.’ Kyuhyun rubbed my back tried to make him stop crying.‘Kyuhyun, just kill me now.’ I cried really hard.After one hour passed finally I stopped crying.The doctor finally came out from ICU room.‘Are you his family? Can I talk with you two in my room?’We followed him but I didn’t know I felt something strange. My heart said to stay and don’t ever leave this place. But Kyuhyun dragged me to follow the doctor. I kept walking and my heart kept hurting. Why?Finally we arrived at the doctor’s room.‘He lost a lot of blood, but thankfully the two veins are not cut too deep. a little late to be brought to the hospital he probably would not have survived. He is currently still very weak condition. He should be treated for at least one week until the condition is fully recovered. He seems to have a lot of thoughts and stress that accumulate. Please take care of him, because originally he has a weak body. We will transfer him to the normal room.’I and Kyuhyun nodded and we got out from the room.I run as fast as I could, I didn’t know why but I have to meet Donghae now!‘Excuse me. The patient named Lee Donghae that just got out of the ICU was transferred to which is room?’‘Room 154 in the 4th floor.’‘Ok thank you!’ I run to the elevator and pressed number 4 impatiently.I got out and searching the room number 154. I came in as fast as I saw the room.But I couldn’t see any sign of him. Where is he??He has transferred to this room right?I kept searching him and I found a note.   ‘I take my son back to me. Don’t try to search him because you will not see him again.’     I have a new story ^^www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/356907Take a look and subscribe please :)